I thought my heart was shattered
By him.
There you were
Standing in front of me
As I looked at you
With lust in my eyes
And love in my heart
It took a while to make
My move, your move
Our moves.
But with the realization
In my memory
You moved me.
You moved me far away
From ever feeling
Anything for him.
You were all that I knew
After that one kiss.
I knew my heart
Was never broken.
It just never felt
Anything for anyone
But you.
You had a good girl
I had my faults
I’ll admit it
but I couldn’t quit it.
& When I say It,
I’m talking about you.
I can’t quit you.
All I wanted to do was get through to you.
That I loved you the most.
I knew you the best.
All these girls in your face
Is that why I was replaced?
You won’t ever catch me doing the same thing.
Cause when you realize I was there because I wanted to be
and these girls are just there for all the freebies
I was genuinely in love with you
These girls don’t genuinely care for you
They’re in my place with bad intentions
All I wanted was only your attention
and to be first place.
Phones work both way
But do you have anything to say?
Words have gone stray
& feelings haven’t gone away.
So what do we do?
Let them linger?
When I see you
It’ll all rush back
I’ll feel it in fingers
Just like I did the first time I saw you
I remember your lips said “Yo”
You became all I wanted to know
Take me back to that day
When we weren’t strangers
& we were loving the moment
Of not knowing each other.
I miss you
But this is the only way
I’ll ever let you know.
I became you & probably lose you
Like you did me.
Once you swallow your pride
You will see.
As much as I want to drive to where you are and fix things..
I know I can’t.
As much as I want to be your only girl
I know thats the past.
And I’m not mad anymore
I’m starting to come to terms with all of this.
It feels like we’ve been through hell & back.
But I’m thankful for this experience
Cause now I see where I lack.
The words and actions out of anger,
I am sorry & I forgive you.
I wonder if someday, we could work.
But it’s not in our hands anymore.
I hope all of your dreams come true
And happiness surrounds you.
We had a sick addiction,
But it’s time I get help.
I’m finding peace within myself.
Gosh, I miss you
and all the little things we used to say
“Pa, tu me quiere?”
But really, do you still?
I miss being me and comfortable around you.
Started to fall deep
like you know when you’re in love with someone
and there’s not a flaw on their face?
Yeah, that kind of way.
Passionate kiss you right back,
grab your hand
and get all of your attention.
I miss that.
Your voice is something I can’t get out of my head
Especially, when I’m alone.
It scares me to think
cause my brain always leads to you.
Do you think of me still?
I wish I could steal
your heart, all the way.
I’d save it for a rainy day
or actually today.
Today, would be nice.
But you still haven’t changed your ways..
Some people are heartless
Some people are just cold
Buried underneath ice
With a heart that needs help beating
And I was that one who made you alive
I was your breakthrough
Couldn’t help but feel warm inside
But to an extent
I thought I was the exception
You got comfortable
Or lost
Or never knew enough about loving someone else,
Putting them above yourself
Still selfish.
Only worried about your wealth
I was concerned with other things
Simply like your health
Im still afraid for you
I know you can be with anyone you’d please
But they’re not me
And they won’t put up with what I did
I just don’t want you to end alone
And me be able to say
I told you so.
How that make you feel?
Everything I said was real
Now i just watch us on this tape reel
It’s a recent memory
It probably won’t ever fade from me
It’s not fair
I still feel all the feelings that were there
At the same intensity
If not more, will we ever get more?
Maybe when she becomes a bore
And I’m not doing me
Call me up
We can take a stroll in the park
Talk it over some drinks
I hope you belong to me
And become more than my history.
Infatuation is after lust
Love is never a must
Only if you find the right one
For the time being
That’s how I see it.
I thought I could be it
or yours.
Never thought I’d see you walk out the door
and tell me the feeling isn’t as strong
Sit here and ask myself
“Man, where did we go wrong?”
Cause these old feelings bring me back
It sparks that image in my head
When you put the blunt down
To kiss me instead.
That was real
and I felt it when our lips met
Such a rush.
I talked to you differently
Not like any other girl out there
could say the things I said to you
They don’t get you like I do.
But I have made the mistake
and now I’ve been replaced.
She still doesn’t make the right fit
but once you get it in
The feelings will go a different route
and then you’ll realize why my feelings grew into love
but I realized that’s what you weren’t ever about.
Everything you want in a woman
I got it
Small waist, pretty face
But it’s deeper than that
I’m on the way to great things
Wouldn’t mind if you were apart of my destiny
Musically connected
I wonder if I never met you
If my heart would be infected
You like the girls who love hip-hop
with a mix of dub-step.
I sing, dance, rap and act.
More than a triple threat.
Thought if you saw what you had
you’d come correct.
Treat me like a queen
Cause you were my king
Now I’m alone on my throne
Will we ever get it right?
Maybe - when we’re grown
If I moved that way
Would you give & take?
Or take and take and take.
I remember when you asked me
“Why you showin me so much love”
Wasn’t it obvious - I couldn’t ever get enough.
In 7 months - we went through it all
I knew that we both we’re going to fall
but I thought you at least had my back
Ride or Die.
I thought I knew where we were at.
Now I keep having these stupid sucka attacks.
