Gosh, I miss you

and all the little things we used to say

“Pa, tu me quiere?”

But really, do you still?

I miss being me and comfortable around you.

Started to fall deep

like you know when you’re in love with someone 

and there’s not a flaw on their face?

Yeah, that kind of way.

Passionate kiss you right back,

grab your hand

and get all of your attention.

I miss that. 

Your voice is something I can’t get out of my head

Especially, when I’m alone.

It scares me to think 

cause my brain always leads to you.

Do you think of me still?

I wish I could steal

your heart, all the way.

I’d save it for a rainy day

or actually today.

Today, would be nice.

But you still haven’t changed your ways..

1:33 am  •  31 May 2012  •  1 note

Some people are heartless
Some people are just cold
Buried underneath ice
With a heart that needs help beating
And I was that one who made you alive
I was your breakthrough
Couldn’t help but feel warm inside
But to an extent
I thought I was the exception
You got comfortable
Or lost
Or never knew enough about loving someone else,
Putting them above yourself
Still selfish.
Only worried about your wealth
I was concerned with other things
Simply like your health
Im still afraid for you
I know you can be with anyone you’d please
But they’re not me
And they won’t put up with what I did
I just don’t want you to end alone
And me be able to say
I told you so.

8:17 pm  •  30 May 2012  •  1 note

How that make you feel?
Everything I said was real
Now i just watch us on this tape reel
It’s a recent memory
It probably won’t ever fade from me
It’s not fair
I still feel all the feelings that were there
At the same intensity
If not more, will we ever get more?
Maybe when she becomes a bore
And I’m not doing me
Call me up
We can take a stroll in the park
Talk it over some drinks
I hope you belong to me
And become more than my history.

12:28 pm  •  30 May 2012  •  1 note

Infatuation is after lust

Love is never a must

Only if you find the right one

For the time being

That’s how I see it.

I thought I could be it

or yours.

Never thought I’d see you walk out the door

and tell me the feeling isn’t as strong

Sit here and ask myself

“Man, where did we go wrong?”

Cause these old feelings bring me back

It sparks that image in my head

When you put the blunt down

To kiss me instead.

That was real

and I felt it when our lips met

Such a rush.

I talked to you differently

Not like any other girl out there

could say the things I said to you

They don’t get you like I do.

But I have made the mistake

and now I’ve been replaced.

She still doesn’t make the right fit

but once you get it in

The feelings will go a different route

and then you’ll realize why my feelings grew into love

but I realized that’s what you weren’t ever about. 

10:13 pm  •  29 May 2012  •  2 notes

Everything you want in a woman 

I got it

Small waist, pretty face

But it’s deeper than that

I’m on the way to great things

Wouldn’t mind if you were apart of my destiny

Musically connected 

I wonder if I never met you

If my heart would be infected

You like the girls who love hip-hop 

with a mix of dub-step.

I sing, dance, rap and act.

More than a triple threat.

Thought if you saw what you had

you’d come correct.

Treat me like a queen

Cause you were my king

Now I’m alone on my throne

Will we ever get it right?

Maybe - when we’re grown

If I moved that way

Would you give & take?

Or take and take and take. 

I remember when you asked me

“Why you showin me so much love”

Wasn’t it obvious - I couldn’t ever get enough.

In 7 months - we went through it all

I knew that we both we’re going to fall

but I thought you at least had my back

Ride or Die.

I thought I knew where we were at.

Now I keep having these stupid sucka attacks. 

7:06 pm  •  29 May 2012  •  1 note

If you cared about me mutually

you’d know what you mean to me

you’d always say “sing to me”

I’d never look at you

but I knew just how to get to you

Now I don’t even know how to get at you

Cause you think I’m attacking you

but all I wanna do is get through to you

Make you see how I see things

and try to make this all clear

At the end of the day 

All I really can say is 

you got me like no one else does.

Will that ever be enough? 

I know it has been rough

You live so far away

I can’t see you everyday

but when you love someone

it’s all worth it, just to see your face. 

But these feelings aren’t mutual

and It’s something I’ll never get used to.

and when you’ll be onto the next one

Just remember - I was the best one.

My biggest request turned into one of your biggest regrets.

Now you know how to lose me, but won’t ever find me. 

Really just wanted you to show you cared and some feelings.

Stone cold heart - 

I will miss you

but I can’t make someone care who never did from the start.

11:05 pm  •  28 May 2012  •  2 notes

Babe in Js. 

11:00 pm  •  28 May 2012  •  4 notes

Everything changes when you go back there
And I’m stuck over here.
Everything changes when you’re near
And not over there.
You change even though I told you I’d always be there even when I’m not near.
You found a replacement to do the things I can’t do while I’m here.
Feelings should stay the same no matter where.
If they’re real, they won’t disappear when I’m not near.
It’s so clear
The music and city changes thee
No room left for me
But when you’re next to me
It’s about convenience & not what you feel for me.

12:31 am  •  9 May 2012

Sticky situation
But you gimme stimulation
Start a fire in me
That I don’t want to stop
Exchange words we don’t mean
Physical actions, carefree.
I like it when you do this to me.
Keep me on this cloud
I always want you when I’m coming down.
Body versus mind
Heart versus time
Distance versus dedication
I swear I have no patience
For you to keep me waiting.
Bake your cake and eat it.
I’ll tell you when I’m finished.
You got a text message
It’s her saying
“I’ll be there in a minute.”

8:17 pm  •  8 May 2012  •  1 note

He said she just luvs your boy
Don’t blame it all on her
What do you do to make her luv you boy?
Do you do it like that?
Text her right back?
Say those right words to bring her right back?
Run the same game.
Deny her, you’d deny me.
You never luved me
& if you did & I asked
You’d call me crazy
And say you don’t have explain a thing.
Alright I get it
Just harder to take in
The more I see it
It’s clear
You’re full of fear
Hope she can take it
Hope you can make it
Not tryna play you
And your taste
But why’d you pick a chic with
Basic brains & a lame?
Just another girl..
Looking for free ticket
To get her to the All-Star Game.

9:04 pm  •  10 April 2012