Dead love

I wish I could bring you back to life

Give you CPR & get that heartbeat right

But as of now – you’re dead.

You’re thinking with your other head

And she’s the only when that can get your heart racing again.

Not that you don’t like me like that

I’m just the one who isn’t around during that time – like 5am.

I’ve already packed my bags up & gone

Hoping you’d call my name

& I’d turn around

But you let me leave without effort

Do you know what effort is?

Cause everything doesn’t come easy

Like the good things.

I guess I wasn’t a good enough thing

I hear your heartbeat ring

Only in my dreams

Cause I swear I wake up

Wishing you were next to me

Oh, but dead love

How I wish you were alive

But you still live inside

Inside of me. 

9:06 pm  •  20 February 2012

Once upon a time –

you were mine

What was I fighting for?

I was at war alone

Took me for granted

Pushed me away

Forced me to leave

I just wanted to stay

Right where you’re at

Next to you

Wherever on the map

They don’t love you like I love you

They don’t get you like I do

You’re imbalanced brain

Sex is insane

Kiss me once

Forget me twice

Get back together

Our love is nice

Not the love story

I once dreamt of

But I’ll take it

Because this is what I got

Where my heart is on lock

Don’t you get me like I get you?

In our dark twisted fantasy

I come back to you all the time

All you have to do is text me

So, why haven’t you got at me?

I heard you weren’t really into me anyways….

8:55 pm  •  20 February 2012  •  3 notes

You just know,

When someone doesn’t feel the same

About you

About you two.

You just know

You feel it in your hands

Down to your knees

You feel everything

Everything changes

The leaf turns over

And it’s a different day

Used to good vibes

Vibes take a different side

I’m not on your side anymore

You killed this, Didn’t you know?

My hearts in pieces

Collector’s item

I’m out the door

I left all my words there too

Nothing to say back to a conversation

That words have left too.

So - we all bounced

But I’ll bounce back with a rebound

And I know you will too

She’ll look halfway decent

Maybe f-ed with the crew

My dude will be sweet as can be

But he still won’t be you….

2.7.12

3:39 pm  •  7 February 2012  •  5 notes

I plan on falling in lust tonight 
You can’t plan for love 
So I prepared for the next best thing 
I see you
You see me
Love struck type of feeling
Feel it in your hands 
Come my way 
Play it cool
I’m already a fool for you 
I say everything in my smile 
It’s been a while
Since like last month 
Feeling this lust drunk
I lust you 
In the morning I hope you lust me too- still. 

2.5.12

10:58 pm  •  5 February 2012  •  2 notes

The sun is behind me 
And so are you
On different tracks
Always been on different sides
But we just lied
To everyone who spotted us
Not verbally but by being all over you 
When I didn’t even want to
Smile for the camera
Dance more on me
Come closer
I’m pretending to be in lust with someone who could never love me. 
I wouldn’t let it go that far. 
From a far you appear prettier than what you are. 
You don’t deserve to get to know the real me. 

2.4.12

6:46 pm  •  4 February 2012

The words you said will cost you

You didn’t deserve me in the first place

1^st place? What’s that?

Somewhere – I’ve never been with you

Thought you’d take me there

You say I’m too much

But you never gave enough

Settling with you would be the worst thing

Now I see, where she’s coming from

All she wanted you to see is that

She deserves the best things.

2.4.12

1:44 am  •  4 February 2012  •  2 notes

I wish I would have never signed my name on the dotted line

Should’ve read the contract all the way through

Instead of skimming & liking what I already knew

I signed my heart over to you

I thought I knew what you were about

Come to find out – it’s not me

My name wasn’t mentioned once in this thing

These papers stated

“She shall be with me to please me when in need. If she craves for attention, let her be. My work comes first And she will respect me.”

But I didn’t know that all of this would turn into regret

I got sold a dream….

thinking you actually wanted to be with me

For me….over everything.

2.3.12

6:28 pm  •  3 February 2012

You tell me to call

I get your voicemail

Shouldn’t have dialed at all

If I was on the other line

Telling you I was dying inside

You’d still ask me to leave

A message at the tone

Ignore my text messages

Don’t act like I’m not on to you

Like I don’t know

You’re out partying

When I thought you’d just stay home

So I could tell you what’s wrong

Tried to make it back to right

You don’t really care about me

You care about how I make you feel

Now I know this isn’t real

No more chances

For you to try to get it

You can’t ever get it right

That’s why even when the next ones onto you

You’ll still truly be alone inside

2.2.12

6:23 pm  •  2 February 2012  •  2 notes

I don’t feel that way anymore

Colliding worlds turned into separate beds

Stomachs in knots make a twisted head

I don’t know you anymore

I wanted you to change for the better

I tried with no effort from you

It was always about you

Who was with you

And what ya’ll were doing

To better your future – not involving me

I wasn’t your first call

You were my worst fall

And out of them all

I just wanted you to get it right

Give me more attention besides at night

Do something nice for me

Because you think the little things

Will always keep me besides thee

What did I expect?

You call me crazy

But did you ever just think

Just once, it wasn’t because of me?

1.30.12

11:50 pm  •  31 January 2012  •  6 notes

I’ll wait by the phone

Like a stupid  chic

That you made me into

Waiting for at least a text

How pathetic is that

Just give me something

I need some substance

And I’m addicted to the lies

I can’t leave

After all the times I’ve cried

I let myself become so weak

Like a stupid chic

For you – all for you

Do you like knowing that I’d do anything for you?

Just be with you.

Did you know I used to be you?

I peep your game

Maybe that’s why I luv you

Cause that’s how I used to be

I used to love til early morning

With the person who knew nothing

About me.

This Is why I luv you

Cause you’re the old miserable me.

Do you

I’ll do me

I was the stupid chic

But not for long

I’m back to the old me.

10:21 pm  •  30 January 2012  •  3 notes